There once was a girl in the Midwest
Whose life sometimes felt like a test.
She’d found her good health was precarious
Every twinge she proclaimed the scariest
Till her doctor begged, “Give it a rest!
I actually wrote this awhile ago but it seemed appropriate now because I have a bone density test and mammogram later today, or as I like to call it, the Great Depression! Just a routine check up, nothing is wrong…
No, not those kind…
But parts of me (not my feet) might have been a little blue as they got pulled and pushed and squished into the cold glass and metal of the mammography machine yesterday. Good news, the radiologist did not see anything to cause concern, declaring me momentarily clear and cancer free. Yay me!!
But as anyone who’s gone through something similar (or maybe has a smidgen of anxiety issues), there’s always a niggling little thought in the back of my mind that they might have missed something or something is there and it’s too small to be seen yet. I even asked my internist why they don’t just do some kind of scan of my whole body. She smiled nicely and said in my case it wouldn’t be helpful.
I tell myself to stop the worry, tamp down the crazy and get on with life. Which I’ve been learning to do pretty well. I call it my new normal. But I admit I sometimes need a Xanax — actually, sometimes hubby begs me to take one — to drift peacefully off to sleep…
Seriously, though, life is very good and I’m feeling great!
Photo of blue footed boobys courtesy of Wikipedia.
I am relieved and just a little apprehensive that surgery has been scheduled for Tuesday, September 20. It has taken a little time to coordinate the doctors’ schedules and OR availability. It will be a right sided skin saving mastectomy followed by immediate reconstruction. I know, who looks forward to that? But I need to get this taken care of and I feel good about my choice.
I had another venous duplex ultrasound of the lower extremities yesterday and it’s clear of any clots. So I may not need the filter placed after all. The interventional radiologist will discuss the results with my hemotologist and they will come to a decision. There’s time to do an outpatient surgery before the 20th if they decide I need to have the filter.
And just an aside, both my breast surgeon and plastic surgeon are gorgeous! A little eye candy never hurts, right? 😉
I’ve got a small “thing” scheduled for tomorrow (as a friend of mine calls it) because of a finding on my mammogram from last week. It should be fine, according to the radiologist who spoke to me, what they call a low suspicion of malignancy. Intellectually I know that’s true, but in my heart and the pit of my stomach, I’m a little worried. But, truly, just a little. I’ve been through this before three years ago and that finding was benign.
So please don’t worry, I just wanted to let you know I will probably miss a few days of blogging, but after they wrap me with an elastic bandage to hold an ice pack on my right side and give me some pain meds I’ll be happy just reading your blogs!