I saw this on someone’s Facebook page so I don’t know who the author is, but it really does say it all. Just wanted you to know I’m okay…
UPDATE: my husband passed away this morning at 11:22 a.m. Life will go on, but it is forever changed…
I’m going to be taking a break from blogging, perhaps an extended one. It’s 3:54 on Monday morning and I’m writing through a blur of tears as I sit in a hospital room as my dear, sweet husband of 37 years swiftly fades away.
Early Sunday morning he suffered a massive brain bleed and life became a whirlwind of ambulances, emergency rooms, phone calls and texts to relatives and the words you never want to hear — there is literally nothing we can do and chances of survival are about 3 percent.
My children who live close by gathered around and we talked and cried and tried to make some decisions. I stayed overnight because I could not bear to leave. I slept a few hours before the ICU nurse woke me to tell me his blood pressure had dropped significantly and he had spiked a high fever. Still, there’s really nothing to do but wait and cry and feel my heart breaking.
We’ve had such a wonderful life together. I know I’m very lucky and not everyone is blessed as I have been. I just thought we’d have more time. I want to thank you all in advance for your love and support and prayers because I’m not sure I’ll have the time or ability
t respond to comments. I love you all, too and I’m so grateful for your friendship.
True, so very true…
JP is our youngest grandson who turned five in September. He and his mom and dad lived with us while they were building their house a year ago. Though they’ve moved into their new house now, we still get to pick him up from preschool on Tuesdays and Thursdays and spend the afternoon with him. Next year he’ll be in kindergarten all day. He’s so full of fun and remarkably wise for his years!
For Blogging A to Z, I’ll be sharing some of our many conversations over the last few years. I hope you enjoy.
JP: Nana, want to do puzzles with me?
Me: Sure, let’s sit at the table.
(He proceeds to put his Jungle Book puzzle together with really no help from me. Proud nana moment here.)
Me: Wow, that was a great job!
JP: I love you, Nana.
Me: I love you, too, bugs.
JP: You are the best nana in the whole world. (Hugging my neck.)
Me: And you are the best grandson.
JP: Look, Nana, I’m petting your hair like a dog.
Will you take the time to know me
Beyond the secret of my curves
I’ll return the favor
And explore your attributes…
Will you celebrate life’s wonders
Let me see it in your eyes
That you couldn’t live without me
You’d never want to try…
Will you stay with me forever
Or as long as time allows
You see, I can’t release you
I’m afraid I don’t know how…