Is it worth it?

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Doubts sneak in shrouded in darkness

pushing away the bright

Searching out secret hideaways of hope

Filling voids with insecurity

Then pulling tight to crush wisps of

dreams never realized

Creating questions

where there need be none

 

Once misted with sparkle and shine

Orderly and wrought with purpose

Now dusty as wishes floating on the breeze

What once seemed so certain

now feels merely pointless

Simply pretentious busy work

Arrange and rearrange words on a page

to make a mediocre life seem more

meaningful…

 

~ Diane D.

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  1. This is really lovely Diane. I read it a couple of times to let the words sink in.

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  2. All I can say is: excellent!

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    1. Aww, thank you for saying that!

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  3. “Arrange and rearrange words on a page” Excellent line! This is really what life is, what we do to make it seem worthy, This is wonderful, Diane!

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    1. Oh, lovely friend, thank you so much for saying that!

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      1. You’re very welcome!! ❤

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  4. Very deep. Great question. Great work!

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  5. So much uncertainty. Excellent poem!

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    1. Feeling frustrated last night…

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      1. I hear that. I’m not sure I’m going to write today… I feel like it’ll be nothing but anger and frustration. And did I miss the limerick prompt? Or wasn’t there one?

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      2. You know, I don’t think there was anything yet. I hope all is well with Rashmi

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  6. Superb….. Like Dorinda, I am really ‘touched’ by these words…
    ‘Arrange and rearrange words on a page

    to make a mediocre life seem more

    meaningful…’

    Hugs! ❤

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    1. Thank you, E. I bow to the master 🙂

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      1. Bless you. Hugs! ❤

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  7. The mood of the blogging world breaks forth! Very similar indeed…. 😉

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  8. This is just wonderful… such depth here! 🙂

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    1. And you didn’t think I had any 🙂

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      1. Ha ha! Not at all 🙂

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      2. Just teasing! Beause I can’t take a compliment gracefully :/ but you did sound a little surprised 😉

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      3. Are just trying to make me squirm now? 😉 I loved it. I always enjoy your blog, but this one really struck me 🙂

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      4. Wow, I am in a mood, aren’t I? Thanks, really, for such a sweet compliment :D. (And, yes, maybe just a little.)

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      5. Ha ha, I squirm too easily anyway! 😉

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      6. And I slip into big sister mode too easily!

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  9. augustmacgregor | Reply

    Ugh — it’s rough when insecurity creeps in. You do a good job of describing that difficult time. I’ve found that taking a break from work helps me. But that nagging question of “Is it worth it?” is hard to deal with.

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    1. Thank you. Sometimes I think fear of failure keeps me from taking those last few steps and completing a project. No rejection that way :/

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      1. augustmacgregor

        That urge is really strong, and it comes way too often for me.

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      2. Good to know it’s not just me!

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    2. At last – someone addresses the elephant in the cake! 🙂

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      1. I know about the elephant in the room and in the jello, but not about one in the cake?

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      2. Oh, it’s the same, just a little more messy. 😉

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  10. So powerful, Diane!

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    1. Thanks, Kay, I was kind of bummed last night… it’s all good now!

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      1. I’m glad today is brighter! We all have bad days. It’s nice to be able to express them.

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  11. Lovely! And, well said.

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    1. Thank you! I’m thinking it’s rather a universal thing!

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  12. This certainly does describe that creepy feeling of insecurity.

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    1. Thanks, I think all writers feel it sometimes…

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  13. love the last line

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  14. I read this after trying to work around 03:00 this morning. I’d been wrestling with a chapter and feeling exactly as you describe. Knowing there’s comfort in the Company (our Blogosphere community) assured me this too will pass. Great post, excellent timing, my friend.

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    1. Thanks for your wonderful comments, Roo. I was a little bummed last night…

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  15. “Loss and possession, death and life are one. There Falls no shadow where there shines no sun.” Hilaire Belloc

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  16. I can understand the lack lustre feeling at the moment. I think the past weeks of all sorts of ups and downs is playing out on a lot of people’s nerves. I don’t like uncertainty and you expressed it quite well.

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    1. Around five this morning I noticed very much the same feelings globally. We silly humans like our illusion of control and dislike any threat to it – cursed reality 😀

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  17. This is beautifully written… and definitely get the emotion.

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    1. Oh, thank you, was having a what’s the point of all this moment last night. I still don’t know, but it’s ok today 🙂

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      1. I have those moments more often than I should admit… ♥

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      2. I usually can get past it, but last night, I don’t know, just got to me. But I’m back to what passes for normal now, lol…

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      3. 🙂 And I’m sitting here with a long serious-ish post that I’m not sure I can put out there… so yeah…

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      4. Serious? Sad serious or sexy serious?

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      5. Serious… I am messed up!

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  18. Very nice poem Diane. I just let the words wash over me. Thank you.
    I also wanted to let you know that I’m going to be taking a break from blogging, probably for a week to a week and a half. I’m at a spiritual conference so will be booked up most of the day. Just wanted to let you know in case you didn’t hear from me! I plan to do a blog post tomorrow to let folks know. ❤
    Abundant blessings your way.

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    1. Thank you for writing. We’ll be on vacation from 7/2 till 7/11 so I probably won’t blog as much either. But I might blog cause I start to have withdrawal if I’m gone too much lol

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      1. Have a great trip!! ❤

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  19. One word – chocolatefever! (okay – maybe 2 words squashed together)
    That’s what’s usually behind it for me.
    You know that I have the same gremlin – you just read about it on my blog (sorry – shameless plug: https://levishedated.wordpress.com/2016/06/28/trojan-horse/). The only difference is that I put a frame around it (a context) and turned it into a leaning tool. Isn’t it great how context changes everything? 🙂 You know what I mean(?)

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    1. I don’t think I ever know what you really mean! Usually chocolate would help but sometimes I’m just bummed about stuff and everything seems like a waste of time. Better now, tho 🙂

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      1. Good to hear that you’re better now, Diane. But the best antidote for it all really is something beyond all the fluctuation on this level. You’ll know what I mean if you read my blog to the end. 🙂

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  20. Oh my friend, this is deep and Yes, you do make a difference!
    ❤ ❤

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    1. Thank you for saying that, Dajena. You are a wonderful friend!

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      1. You are welcome my friend. Likewise!!

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  21. I was out of blogworld for three days. I have spent the entire day reading posts. Apparently, this weekend I caught a cold. So, my head is pounding and my eyes a bit swollen and tired. The reason I tell you this is because when I opened this notification, I told myself it would be the last post I read today.

    I am so happy I did. What a perfect way to end my blogging day. I concur with many of the things our mutual blogging friends said. There were several great lines in this piece, but those last three lines will be admired by any writer who reads them.

    Diane, this is one of your best. Bravo.

    Thanks for the wonderful end to my blogging day.

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    1. I thank you so much and bow to the master, my friend!

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  23. A @ moylomenterprises | Reply

    Nicely done. ☺ 🌷

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  24. I just reread this. Perfect timing, thank you. I really appreciate the topic & care of your writing. I’m working on doing my best to live in alignment (which helps me stay out of doubt!) Blessings ❤

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    1. Thanks for reading. I have my moments of doubt but usually I’m okay with things!

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